VEGETARIAN, PARTIAL VEGETARIAN, NON-VEGETARIAN?

I was struggling between these three thoughts since last two weeks.

Since young, I love to eat meat. Every dish that i have must have meat. I don't like vege. I remeber the taste of vege as bitter and funny.

After marriage, when i stay with my in-laws, i learn how to eat vege but they are also meat eater. Every meal there is at least two or three meats. At lunch or everywhere i go, i love to eat meat and at least must have a meat.

Everytime, i thought that as human beings, meat is a necessity. Though i eat meat, i never killed a single fish or chop a piece of meat before. I thinks its cruel. I never like the smell of a wet market cuz it's smell of raw meat.

I only eat meat:) I love animals even fish. I can't bear to eat goat cuz they look so innocent and cute. I only eat chicken and pig. Until i saw the animal liberation video last two Sundays, i don't have the heart to eat animals anymore. Cuz it's look so cruel when we rear them and then kill them for our food. I cried during the video.

I brought nine little goldfish last month. When they die, i felt sad and bring them beneath my block to bury them in the soil. I even brought them to the vet. I keep on questioning myself why did i kill and eat other fishes while my pet fishes i don't even bear to kill them let alone eat them?

Whenever i see dead fishes with their eyes wide open, i feel sad for them. But all along, i thought its normal that animals are for human consumption. This is what God give to us for food but i was wrong due to misconception. I should stop eating animals.