FEELING SICK

Yesterday, i went back to my mom's house and may had made the wrong decision. My cousins are all sick (fever) and started to transfer the viruses to one another.

Even my autie had caught the virus. Yesterday, when i went i am going home after the buddhism class, it rain heavily and both me and my husband are caught in the rain. When i got home, i started to have flu symptoms. My mom called me and i can't juz simply reject her by saying i won't be going back home, morever she had juz recovered from operation and is resting at home.

I got scolded from my husband when i went back home cuz he is not happy and he told me he needed to take a rest. I still got lots of things to do, buying grocery ect. My aunt have been helping my mum to cook for the whole month as my mum can't take heavy things.

When i got there, my aunt started to talk to me and i noticed that she is sick. After staying for a few hour in my mom's place, I feel sick and my body feel weak.

This morning, i went to see the doctor and it cost a bomb. $39. My heart ache as i can only claim $35 for medical expenses from my company. But what to do?

To make things worse, my husband criticize me again this morning. Even though i was sick, i make it a point to wake up at 6.30am to prepare porridge for our breakfast. He told me not to do it again and said i am not so free, i need to work, i am not a monk blah blah blah.

Yesterday, the fa shi talk about thankfulness. I wonder did my husband thank me for the effort that i had put in by waking up so early in the morning to prepare for our breakfast?

I know he had a point. He said can settle by eating bread or biscuits but now i know it's not healthy to skip breakfast and study had shown that by eating a full breakfast will make one feel more energnise during the day.

But never mind, in life is like this, what you had done for others, they may not appreciate your effort, maybe they have their own views, different from mine but Buddha did teach me to have generosity and loving kindness to all sentient beings.