NOTHING LAST IN THIS WORLD

I found this while surfing through the net and find it to be very meaningful.

It reads :

Nothing lasts in this world.It feels great to have friends who believe in you, and people you can rely on. That's why it's so dangerous, especially if you become used to it. Someday you're bound to lose everything. Everybody around you will be gone.Then what are you left with? Nothing. Nobody...It's so miserable yet inevitable. It's so hard to recover from something like that. I never ever want to deal with that again. I can't. Even if it means being alone...

Last time I used to hold on to things in life very tightly and everyday my prayer will be Bodhisattva, pls bless me and my husband with good health, stable job, good relationship with husband ect ect.

It’s not a bad thing if we pray for these things in life but we must also accept changes that will be bound for in life. For example, if you are in good health today, doesn’t mean you will be in good health forever. If you are rich, doesn’t mean you will be rich forever. One day, your loved ones will also leave you if it’s meant to be in this way.

Last Saturday, I went for a Buddhism talk in a temple, the speaker is a counselor in the family service centre. He had seen lots of families’ problems, especially divorce case?

One thing he told us is, he had seen some that they themselves depends so much on the other half that once the other half is no longer with them or don’t want them, they became lost and can’t live totally cuz they put so much time, effort & hope in the other half and when the other half is gone, they can’t accept it and became very depressed in life.

One word that the speaker said, had stayed in my heart until this present moment, Don’t ever live for others, Only live for yourself. Hui zi ji er huo? He does not teach us to be selfish but instead live your life as if you are enjoying it and don’t depend so much on other people in your life that when they are gone, you felt weak and so lost that you can’t live anymore.

To be honest, I will fall in the category of the weak one, cuz I am weak and timid and I had to be honest to myself and admit it truthfully. But, now, I had to change my mindset.

Last time, when young, I used to be very dependent on my family. Even though my father is not a good husband/father, I still hope that we can stay together as a family. At least to me, I had a complete family in the eyes of others. I had a father, mother and a sister. I remembered how I cried with my mum when he had to go oversea to work in China when I was juz nine years old. In my teenage year, everything changed. My father and mother had divorced each other. I felt so upset all of a sudden and could not accept the truth. It was my husband who had supported me through that period of difficulty and that is when my husband got the chance to meet up with my mom for the first time. I feel so touched that I end up married to my husband at a young age. Fate?

This is the reason why I became so dependent on my husband all these eight years, not financially dependent but emotionally dependent. I am happy that we can see each other first thing in the morning everyday, going for holidays together, having dinner together and I pray to Buddha that I am so grateful to Buddha that I can found that special someone who is willing to share the same religion as me.

But I was highlighted the importance of letting things go and that nothing last in this world. I struggle with the thought of him dying first or me. I hate to be separated from him. Hate it or love it, it still had to be Buddha’s way and I must learn to accept it.